Poem: “A Revolution Happened Inside My Heart”

A Revolution Happened Inside My Heart

An ocean of tears painted my face
For thousands of years
A masterpiece in every
Time and space

Until the waves became
a butterfly in this dimension
Intergalactic blue
Kissing my cheeks
Whispering
“I remember you”

This world— 
fills my soul
and breaks my heart
every single day
and that is life.

I look around
and the earth cracks open beneath me.
A revolution happened inside my heart
and it said:

The Divine Feminine has no gender. 
An embodied perspective.
A formless archetype.
A way of being.
A way of seeing.
It exists in all beings.

We were taught to punish and destroy this part of ourselves.
To subdue it into dormancy. 
To cut off our access to:
compassion 
intuitive choice
emotional fluency
collaboration
sensuality
reverence
tenderness
softness
and forgiveness. 

The oppression of the divine feminine began lifetimes ago.
Collectively, and gradually 
we became fragmented
emotionally disoriented
depressed
full of self-hate
stagnant 
and indecisive.

The Divine Masculine has no gender.
The Yang perspective 
to the Divine Feminine Yin.
A way of being.
A way of seeing.
It exists in all beings.

Yet,
a different collective relationship.
A distortion. A toxicity.
An over-amplification. A patriarchal devolvement.

We turned the volume up so high that the sound system broke.

But in true form, 
the essence of the divine masculine lies in each of us.
The power of:
mental strength
mastery in manifestation 
precision
stability
integrity
and humility. 

Our collective divine feminine remains dormant and subdued,
while our collective divine masculine is corrupted and hyperventilated.

We know this because we live in a container of:
mass-violence
arrogance
domination
colonization
and flaccid, spineless leadership.

But,
simultaneously
synchronistically
and in radical defiance 
of all of those things,
we still live in a container of:
love.

Both are true.
What is this thing that we’ve created?

You say: I’m angry. I should hide it away.

Divine Feminine says: Anger is an essential emotion. Feel it and express it. If you don’t express it, it will eat away inside you and explode into manipulative, resentful behavior. Give voice to your anger, with love. Take the things that break your heart and use that anger to make change in your own life and in the world around you. 

You say: I’m angry. I should destroy.

Divine Masculine says: Anger occurs when you feel there is an injustice. Let go of what is no longer serving you and find justice through honorable action. Now is the time to create safety and stability in your own life and for the people around you. Act with love, precision, and humble greatness.

You say: I am worthless.

Divine Feminine says: That is not true. You are a cosmic work of art with incredible gifts to share with the world. You belong here. Show up and express yourself.

You say: I have nothing to offer

Divine Masculine says: That is not true. You will find your greatness in the exact moment that you choose to help others. 

I look around
and the earth cracks open beneath me.
A revolution happened inside my heart
and it said:

Who are you when
your feminine is liberated
and your masculine surrenders?